I have these thoughts

I like to call them that, but Johnny thinks they are things I worry about. Here they go so far:

1. I'm so freakin' constipated! So, I took a laxative a few days ago. When it eventually started working one night, I thought if I pushed too hard, I'd push little blueberry out. As I look back over this, please know, that I know this is ludacris! But it was a real fear at the time. A very real fear.
2. That I'm doing something unbeknownst to me that is harmful to blueberry.
3. That I'm not doing something that I'm supposed to be doing right now.
4. That I don't know what the heck I'm doing at all!
5. That I'll gain back all the weight I lost (40lbs) this past year and more! And that I won't be able to lose it again.

I think that will do for now.

I haven't been to the doctor...

And I have a perfectly good reason!

I love the midwife at my OB/GYN! Love her! When I went to see her in May for my annual appointment, she mentioned to me that she was looking at changing practices. She told me to check her website if I needed her before my next annual. So, yeah I need her now! And she's leaving the practice, but has not provided info on her new practice yet. So, I've called twice to make my initial appointment. Each time, I was told that they were not scheduling anymore appointments for my midwife, but to call back next week for more info. Her last day at this practice is July 31. I'm glad they are providing her time to find a new practice, however, it's not really helping my worry factor right now. The office did tell me that they don't normally see patients until the 8 or 10th week. So, I felt a little better, but then I realized I'm in my 7th week. So it may be August before my first appointment.

I just want to make sure everything is ok so far and that I'm not currently doing something that will harm little blueberry (that's what Johnny and I are calling him/her this week). So the internet has been my best friend these last two weeks and I've become research queen!

But as with anything, the more you learn, the more you know to worry about!

So, we're pregnant!

Yes, you read right! We've got a little one developing! Or at least we think we do. Haha! More on that later.

But we are pretty sure. Two positive tests tell us so. In addition to me being seriously tired, having out of this world gas, bloating, indigestion and cramping. Let's not forget, little to no appetite (Not sure if that last one is ok). Fun times. At least there's no morning sickness... yet.

How are we feeling? Excited, happy, scared, overwhelmed! But extremely happy and giddy and completely in love with one another!

As of today (according to BabyZone.com), I am 6 weeks, 4 days. So doesn't that technically mean I'm in my 7th week? I'm going with that.

With all of that being said, welcome to our blog! It's our way of keeping our family and friends up to date on the making/growing of our family. Although, technically, no one knows yet. More on that later too. :) So until we spill the beans, this is my personal venting space! I've got so many thoughts and feelings swirling around!

Welcome!